In my thoughts
But under the clouds
It seems I’m experiencing the downpour
The short end of the stick
The pain cuts like razor blades
And stings worse than a wasp
but even though I’m drowning in the rain
You save me countless times matter a fact
And the first time you saved I fell
I fell long and hard
Didn’t care about the rejection you’d sing
Or the heartbreak you’d bring
I was blindfolded by my own heart and feelings
Self manipulation
Just because we had same thoughts dreams interest I thought I had a chance at someone
As beautiful as you but I failed I have lost this war this battle to rejection but sadly I can’t leave and it kills my spirit to stay
Because the fact sleeps in my thought
I’ll watch u love another someday
and say I’m happy for you
I wish I could move on
But my feelings stay rooted like a great oak tree impenetrable to the rain and the abuse of nature
your abuse to my feelings as well
I wish that I was a man of great control
But sadly I’m losing everything I once had a grip on the pain is too great
But my feet are still planted I can’t walk away all I can do is watch my worst nightmare play like a true story Movie
because I have to watch u love another and you could care less what it hurts inside me but who am I kidding
I’m a people pleaser I’m doing this to myself but it’s not my fault she turned my greatest strength into a weapon I’m steadily pouring into her and she drinks and doesn’t care if
I die of thirst  if my nights are filled with misery if I  daydream of us kissing or the fact my heart can’t process what’s gonna **** me
Like my kidneys the only choice is too
Die slow and I can’t run fast enough from the inevitable to escape the inevitable and it’s the saddest truth I’ve had to face and know unwillingly