I spend my days
Lying in the bed
Wondering searching through the past
As if it comes back
I wouldn’t mind it afterall
Sure I would experience the heartbreak
The thousands of nights I sat there awake
The days I sat there full of hate
Or the days I wish I could have a redo
On all my mistakes
But I’d also remember
Times like my first kiss
Or the first time I laughed
My first smile
My first crush
The first time I fell in love
And I’d love to crash course
Through the past
I’d do a lot differently
But no words written in stone change
All I’m doing is torturing myself
Meaningless pain
all I’m doing is losing time
I can’t regain
While the mistakes I’ve made
Stay the same