I want to thank you  
for the immeasurable pain
for the nights spent
crying, shaking, remembering
your touch
your breath

I want to thank you
not because you brought me any good
nor gave me any pleasant memories
but because your evil made me
rethink who I am
down to each individual cell
and because of that
I am stronger than I have ever been

I want to thank me
for my unleashed conviction
to pursue my own liberation
in each breath I take
my happiness
not necessarily in spite of you
but because my worth has been
burned into my soul

so thank you
you beautiful *******