a twenty-six year old woman sits alone outside a coffee shop, waiting she plays Snake on an old Nokia that was discontinued long ago her red dread locks are tucked neatly under a worn beanie that she stole from the boy that she gave her virginity away to in a skate park when she was nineteen
a twenty-six year old woman sits alone at her desk, writing she has a one night stand whose name she doesn't remember sleeping in her bed her mascara is running and her lips are dyed black from henna that she stole from the girl who offered her shelter when she ran away to live in her car and dingy motel rooms after college
a twenty-six year old woman sits outside a Stop and Shop, drinking Shasta she recently tried to publish her book of poems , but it was rejected so: her shorts barely covered her backside and she wore the bralette that she stole from her brother's girlfriend while she was visiting in the false hopes that he would register how badly she needed him (or anyone)
a twenty-six year old woman sits in a little blue rowboat, drilling holes into the bottom she skims Red Kayak before she leaves home and ties rocks around her ankles her thoughts are set on mentally regressing the pain of her teenage years that she wishes she could steal back to at least put some emotion back into her heart
it'd been better than feeling nothing at all
much later, her ghost watches on quietly: "Ten years ago, it was today I never imagined giving up this way."