i wish my name was
matilda or something that
sounded beautiful when said by
a starbucks barista or
a boy with rustled brown hair
who loved me

if my name were
matilda maybe i would be
someone better who
didnt hurt people who cared about her
and didnt lie about
how they really felt

i wish my name was
matilda because i have already
tarnished the name that i was
supposed to make great and be proud of
my name isnt matilda
but i wish it was