There is a better way the jewels of wisdom locked in my chest cavity buried in ignorance, arrogance, not meant to see the light of day these flowers meant to grow with my decay and open their fist over my grave how long can I hold onto the murky morality whose ink is poisonous, to whom I am a slave to give up, let all hope bleed out of me and offer no hope I can be saved
This is the quandary with redemption you don't get to martyr yourself for one ultimate act sacrifice at your convenience, foregoing temptation the receipt of your past forever scrawled on your back you can't merely decide it's all over now, at your whim some of us have such horrible portraits waiting, our necks snap with whiplash some have no fear of their inner nature, peering long and grim
The truth is you will forever be remembered that way by those who choose to see you as such while you can grow and regress in the ages to come, the truth is exerting discipline amounts to much fear excuses the rationale to cause pain, never does it explain how to apologize for its damning touch I know that I can train and restore some of my forgone humanity, I just need to find the better man in meΒ Β a moral beauty or amoral beastly belayed to a bucket in the inkwell of true intentions convenience of conscience counts on the weight of the scales that measures redemption what black spot your heart beats by, dichotomous before the open iris of forgiveness' sigh is truly an omen, no omission from this misery, come and commiserate with me in Second Chance's Cemetery you must want for yourself and nobody else to see the sins on your portrait clear, if this road follows hope then it cannot be led by fear no resurrection, no intersection, letting go is a blind fall on trust once free to be yourself and know yourself, you can become who you must.