I wanted something real
and I got it
and then I realized yes I got something real
but the first thing real that I experience will not be my only
and, very unlikely will it be something that lasts
see things that are real
are often times too real
for reality
for every day life
for the mundane
for living
with no relief from what is real
what is true
and though I never thought I would say this
maybe being real just isn't enough
It is great
and will never be forgotten,
hopefully
but it will fade and mold into a different beast entirely
to something it once was
and will always be
but only in those moments in time
they will forever be real memories and the feeling will always be there
but only
in that time and place
will the real
survive and last
for all time
painful and mind numbingly
the way it plays tag with our emotions
never staying on one too long
but it is only those things that are, in fact, real that
in the end
really matter.