Why can't I say NO? Am I afraid or just stupid? I kept agreeing with people that did nothing but abuse me. But even with that treatment I chose to be kind.
Ask me why?
Because I promised Him I'll be fine. fine with sorrow for I know one day he'll save me. I swear to bare, because I knew someone cared. believe me when I say, cruelness is in the air... but somewhere is where we are our own Heir.
I'm a mess, I can't stay calm in my nest. I am exhausted because I can't rest. I say yes because I thought that's the best. despite saying those things I knew nothing will fickle, in the end I will always say YES.
Despite saying that I don't really regret helping anyone, because I always say to them that "that's the least I can do". It is true, this poetry ain't hate nor rant but I just want to relate to some who doesn't feel okay anymore every time they say yes. ALWAYS REMEMBER TO DO SOMETHING YOU LIKE SO THAT REGRET WON'T HAVE ITS CHANCE. I help other people because I love seeing someone have lesser problem...and also, the story goes like this... my grandfather died helping other people yet he did not regret it, well that's how it was told :<<<
I NEVER MET HIM, BUT I ALWAYS FEEL TEARY REMEMBERING AND IMAGINING HIS MEMORIES, I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT HE COULD HAVE TAUGHT ME AND WE COULD HAVE HELPED OTHERS SIDE BY SIDE.
still without him physically I STILL WANT TO CONTINUE, because he is with me! HE IS WITH ME!!! 01003102020012005PM