I am dangerous
I am sociopathically insane
I crave to build someone up
Then break them down again
I want more power than I need
Simply so I can terrorize
Terrorize the animals and humans and
Every single being that passes my eyes

I'm not safe for you
Because I'd like to ******* up
I'd love to break your morales down
And see your dreams crushed
I'd like to take your standards
And rip them all apart
I'd like to make you need me
But I'd prefer to rip out your heart

I'd like to control everything
Life, death, and everything in between

I'd like anyone to see
That I'm not safe
I'm not okay
I'm power-tripping
I'm so insane
I'm stuck on my brain
I'm stuck on this thought
And when I'm not drugged
When I can freely think
When I can feel the paranoia
When I can see clearly
I begin to plot

I plot your death
I plot your life
I plot your servitude
To me

I plot exactly how
Your blood will trace the lines
On the tile on the floor
So crimson now
So brown later

I plot our conversations
I plot our silences
I. Plot. It. All.

And it's not enough

I want you to breath
Only when I say so
Blink.
At my command
Live.
Only when I let you.

It's only when I see this part
Of my brain that I remember
I'm dangerous
In all the wrong ways

I push it all down
It's not human to feel this way
So I push it all down
But one day
I know
I'll snap.