It’s always in one ear
Then out the other
Never truly hearing me
Never really saying something
Just stand politely and agree
Do what they say and hope it all passes

As dark falls
And no one is around
It’s okay to lock yourself away
Crying the day away
Just until you fall asleep
Ready to restart and hope for freedom
Freedom from the demon dwelling

You think I’ve got thick skin
But it’s this thick skull
Just here to protect
Force away all that have nothing to say
Keep what stability is left
Just before it crumbles

Just gotta bury myself deeper
Let the breech come
Sieging what sanity was left
Driving myself mad
Only becoming my own worst enemy
Just don’t let me drown in my sorrow

You just sit there clueless
So unnerved by the brutality
To the possibility of fail
Yet here we stand
Just trying not to cry
Taking them deep breaths

But these intrusive thoughts
Just hacking away at the last of my heart
Trying to force me into numbness
Unwavered by the dangers of finalizing
Arms going limp
Unable to speak