the fall
that's all i remember
a sudden shove
and after the initial shock registered
all i felt was my arms and legs
cartwheeling
trying to find purchase on a surface that was not really there
and then



and then this
not really sure how to describe it
oh, people have tried
for millenia
the feeling
that everything's a dream
everything's an illusion
a fake
and it is because of this feeling
that i am certain
everything is deadly
and real
and it won't go away

the fall

when they run out of questions,
they generally revert back to one single phrase
worded differently
with different intonations and in different accents
did it hurt
was it painful
did you feel betrayed

i didn't feel anything
i couldn't feel anything
because nothing was real

don't they teach you kids this stuff?
this is important, right?
why don't you know this?

everything stops, at one point or another
everything ends, and then begins

cycles repeat
and repeat
and repeat

and i wait

of course i felt betrayed


...



i'm only human...

the people around me
forget
after a while

everything

i tell them things
and they forget

they tell themselves things
and they forget

the city
bustling
movement without abandon
no-one has tried to restrict them in years
and they celebrate it

by restricting themselves

so i wait

it has been such a long time now

it has been seconds

it has been decades

it has been an eternity

and i wait