There is'nt very many places that can come close to the perfection that a summers night brings about on the streets of San Pedro. Its all still so raw, on the lower side of town ,tenants sit outside on stoops in front of cheap hotels made for cheap people. Feral cats stalk the wharf rats who hide out within the rising mounds of fishing nets that sit in large heaps along the guano stained docks. The Mad houses all have ancient air conditioning, all of which only seems to push the Mad a little bit closer to that empty they all long to fill. Teen aged lovers walk hand in hand past the bars and the liquor stores along Pacific Ave. The smiles on there clean faces prove that they are still oblivious to the horrors that love will one day bring. Drinking men and Die hard wasted Women stand outside of windowless drinking holes ******* on cigarettes, their silent stares warn all who pass that what little they had to lose is already gone. Most of these sets of eyes and heads of hair, have never heard the nightbird sing,or watched transfixed as the blood ran along the gutters like mountain run off in the spring.
I find it comforting to know that these summer night adventures dare only to venture out for this briefest of season. I need them gone from my darkness, they are not of the night, even one as perfect as this. Their clueless smiles and their false joys cast a foul shade of light upon the realness and the honesty of this summers night. Only lost souls like myself, the street walking ****** and the murderous feral cats know when and where the magic truly died. Only those with broken ties and broken hearts can look to the shot out street lamps and know they are home. If only these programed minions would leave me and the mad ones, me and the ******, me and the shot out street lamps and the flea bitten battle hardened wharf cats to all of what we call our own. They come out of their cages and walk along the same gum stained sidewalks as we who have sacrificed it all to become as one with the night.
They see all of the same neon signs and graffiti covered walls as I do, but that's where their tiny little minds locked into their tiny little worlds stop. They cant comprehend and I don't have enough wine or enough patience to waste my time on programed minds. Let them cheer each other on let them guide each other to their deaths. Leave us to this night and the millions of California summer nights to come. Let them lock themselves away when these summer nights shift to fall. I and the night cringe at their presence. The feral cats release a deep menacing warning as these invaders pass them by. Their place is locked securely behind some gates,somewhere on that hill. A place I dare not to venture,a place built on the blood labor of the poor,a place full of their lies. Lies and forced false ways that draw deep blood toned scars upon the honesty and the integrity of this sacred summers night.