dear God,
do you hear these prayers?
i sink to my ****** knees each night
speaking so my ears can hear once beloved words
tumbling from my lips
they can't exist if unheard by anyone
but do i count?
are they heard by you?
if you hear, then you see
these salty creations that fall from my eyes in pleading
dripping dripping
leaving streaks of forbidden water
pooling and collecting
the debts of nights i had forgotten about you
do you feel these cries?
is this your wish?
Satan must run rampant with your blessing once again
to see if i'll curse your name and wither
is that why you had given me all
to take it away?
to place me here, lined scars kissing my wrists
emptiness in my soul
all for me to say 'Blessed be Your Name'?