i am in an electric swimming pool
with the water dancing and bursting
into turquoise sparks of turmoil

although
it is nighttime, humid, hot
times like these i overthink
and minds like these go into overdrive

they dart around like tadpoles
in the shallow grass of the yard
except they are figments, fragments
of my anxietes and fears

one of them catches me staring
they are insidious
he attacks my nerves
leaving me defenseless against my fear

i am afraid i cannot sleep
for one of them will beckon me
they want me to accompany them
on their routes through the unseen world

i feel like dying so this is a gift
but i would rather die on my own terms
than be forced to by something that does not exist