Sep 2020
The last year has been one of the hardest I thought I would ever face.
It has been filled with hard and fast decisions. The kinds that have ultimately challenged every pre-packaged expectation I had of what my life would be at that point.
I had reached a place in which I’d accepted stale familiarity as an alternative to the fear of the unknown. Where I hoped that if I could just keep my depression and frustration at bay I could endure for the sake of keeping things comfortable. Then I finally came to the realization that complacent and comfortable were not acceptable options.
I caught a glimpse of happiness when I truly discovered my little and everything finally clicked into place. Once I made that discovery all hope of keeping her in the shadows evaporated quickly, along with any notion of staying within the darkness.
So after making one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to within my adult life, I stepped out of that situation and began a journey over the last year that has brought me to a place of peace within myself that I can’t truly describe to anyone who has not yet experienced it. It’s a sense of freedom like I’ve ever known and one that I will not willingly give power over it away again.
Through every emotion, every struggle, every momentary doubt in my ability to do this on my own I can honestly say that I know that regardless of what comes; I can. It can be difficult at times but that doesn’t make it impossible.
That choice, that moment that I wrote about a year ago, was more worth it than I could have ever even dreamed. And I can proudly say that literally one year after escaping the darkness, I am at peace within the light. My little has never been more free, and I am one happy baby girl.
With sissies and friends who love and a Dada who thinks I’m the most awesome fairy pwincess in da whole wide world (okay that might be stretching things giggles) I truly believe that this is what true happiness is.
Grace
09/22/2015
It has been filled with hard and fast decisions. The kinds that have ultimately challenged every pre-packaged expectation I had of what my life would be at that point.
I had reached a place in which I’d accepted stale familiarity as an alternative to the fear of the unknown. Where I hoped that if I could just keep my depression and frustration at bay I could endure for the sake of keeping things comfortable. Then I finally came to the realization that complacent and comfortable were not acceptable options.
I caught a glimpse of happiness when I truly discovered my little and everything finally clicked into place. Once I made that discovery all hope of keeping her in the shadows evaporated quickly, along with any notion of staying within the darkness.
So after making one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to within my adult life, I stepped out of that situation and began a journey over the last year that has brought me to a place of peace within myself that I can’t truly describe to anyone who has not yet experienced it. It’s a sense of freedom like I’ve ever known and one that I will not willingly give power over it away again.
Through every emotion, every struggle, every momentary doubt in my ability to do this on my own I can honestly say that I know that regardless of what comes; I can. It can be difficult at times but that doesn’t make it impossible.
That choice, that moment that I wrote about a year ago, was more worth it than I could have ever even dreamed. And I can proudly say that literally one year after escaping the darkness, I am at peace within the light. My little has never been more free, and I am one happy baby girl.
With sissies and friends who love and a Dada who thinks I’m the most awesome fairy pwincess in da whole wide world (okay that might be stretching things giggles) I truly believe that this is what true happiness is.
Grace
09/22/2015
