There it is, I’ve said them,
The words are out there in print.
And now I’m fully committed,
In a place where they can’t be unsent.
I’ve wrestled with them for a while now,
Struggling to get them just right.
So they would tell you how grateful I am,
But that the fit we have just isn’t quite right.

My intent is not to hurt you,
Although it’s inevitable, the pain.
And knowing that I’m the cause of it,
Is what has caused me, until now, to refrain.
To refrain from even speaking the words,
Which I know would cause us both such pain.

I want us to find happiness,
And through that struggle comes tears.
That part is what’s to be expected,
With all that we’ve shared, our hopes and our fears.
Please know that to be spiteful is not me
I pray that in the end you find peace
Knowing that within this release
The healing can begin.

In this final moment,
The pain is too fresh for clear thought.
To be rational in our assessments,
And not to be impulsive by emotions left raw.
But this decision is ultimately for the best,
In the long run that is.
To know that Gracie will find what she needs,
And Papa Bear will meet also with his.
That thing that makes him happiest,
The peace more than even I can provide.
To reach that place, this pain is necessary
And I beg of you, please, not to completely hate me,
For being selfish for once in what Gracie needs,
And having to say Good-bye.

Grace
03/14/2015