There it was, that moment
I just heard the crack
And with that final audible severing
There isn’t any going back.

I wanted to keep it peaceful
To not cause more unneeded pain
But instead of calm civility
You continue to antagonize me
Leading me into the undying belief
That I was the root all along.

I am not claiming to be perfect
When just the opposite is true
But I’ve never been so vindictive
As to go out of my way to hurt you.

I guess I couldn’t expect much more,
Your ego is so fragile after all.
But I’ve officially reached a level of done
That you’re comfort level isn’t my call.

Yours and my game has ended
The emotion of it far gone.
Until I stood here empty
Terrified that it would end me
Struggling ever so desperately
To maintain a modicum of peace.

But here I find fear vanishing
As a new emotion takes over now
Instead of fearful worrying
I have peace, now growing
Until I standing here knowing
That my success is up to me.

Failure is not guaranteed
Just because you are no longer here.
I am learning to release
My ever present fears.

In this moment I am stronger
Knowing that I’ll be okay
No longer fearful of what is to come
Welcoming instead, a new day.
Grace
09/09/14