Another night spent drifting,
My memories unbound.
I find myself now anxious.
Not adding up but counting down.

Awaiting impatiently the alarm that I should wake.
Knowing that it will come too soon, any thoughts of rest are now gone;
My sanity at stake.

Watching the hands click mercilessly
On a face I have found as my own.
Until not even looking I see;
Now not even begging, I plead
Wishing for some reason, some peace
From these ever present fears.

Even now as I can’t seem to speak,
Words pour out continually
My laughter is lost in the irony
As the moment for laughing has passed.

But on and on I ramble to You,
Even though You can’t hear me.
And still in my mind’s ear You words echo continually,
“Sleep my sweet Serenity.”

“How can I sleep?”
My anxious mind asks.
How can I forget all that has passed?
Why must I relive these pains
So embedded in my pasts?
Why can I not get away?

Running into the escape of Your arms,
My tears flow freely and I am unarmed.
Silencing every screaming alarm.
Crying for pain in my head.

And as I’ve expected You to, even before
You shush my sobs.
But still I cry more
While silently you hold me
Letting me finally breathe.

Being my strength, my Serenity.

-Marie
04/16/2008