This is no longer a relationship, But simply a religion instead. Nay, not religion, an order of steps That as a trained circus animal, I seem to follow the routine.
Screaming out of frustration, I try to step out of line, To suddenly break the pattern, To beat my own path, but then I trip. I stumbled and fall and am drug back into the steps That drag me back toward mediocrity.
Though I scramble to get away, Scraping away at the lock that holds me in, When in fact, It is I who holds the keys.
I wear my spirit to the point of exhaustion. Til I am ready to surrender it all. Then Jesus speaks so clearly into my mind “But I went through hell for you.”
Weakly I pull myself to my feet and wearily I push on. Through another hour, another day, til the day to you I will belong.