i’m just really sorry. i know it hurts you to see me hating myself. i am so incredibly sorry for putting you through this when you don’t deserve any of it. and i deeply apologise for constantly hurting you.
you don’t understand how could i possibly dislike something about myself. i get that, i really do. because some part of me actually listens, and knows that i am beautiful. this part sees me the same way you do.  but right now i‘m just unable to find this small piece of me and see myself differently. it‘s just not possible for me. and i completely understand how much pain it causes you, i really do. you didnt ask for any of this and dont deserve to suffer. i would like this all to end just because of you, just because i see how hurt you are. but i just cannot do that, i‘m simply not able to. and for that, i am sorry.