it’s 3:50 a.m. and I am laying here

thinking nothing

feeling nothing

dreaming nothing
I have no fate

no destiny

just plans that never turn out right

plans that I make

plans that I destroy
I regret it now

the day I looked at you

and my heart stopped beating

and my mind whispered

" you will love him , and he , love you ."

it never goes according to plan
because I love you now

enough for 
7 billion 46 million people

who have the audacity to

think they matter

feel they matter 

dream they matter
and you 
have not given me

a second glance ..

let alone 
a first one .