You make me want to stay in bed
Playing the music that makes my heart ache
Closing the curtains
Making sure no light escapes
In between the fabric
I’d rather not see the sun rising
As I begin to sink
Leaving my phone on silent
Drowning myself in the quiet
With the exception of my mind
It never seems to listen
Burying myself under blankets
Wishing I were with you instead
Letting torment overpower
Any other emotion
Until the numbness appears
Laying next to me
Holding me while I can’t sleep
Telling me I’m nothing
I begin to believe it’s true
That it was my fault
And I could’ve saved you.

-LL