Sep 2020
I can only see the truth
In the near distance
And I bathe in the fire of its certainty
I prefer the immediate pain of it
Rather than stewing in a melting *** of ‘what ifs’
A death by a thousand cuts is fun for no one
Don’t you agree?
Or would you be weighed down by the burden,
Of living life without the liberty of hope?
It doesn’t mean ambition has to be quashed
It doesn’t mean vision has to be vague
Or your spirit has to dwindle like a glorious rainbow fading to beige
It’s just a reminder you don’t have to plough on
Senseless and directionless
Like a hamster outside of the wheel
Blinded by the darkness of a vast space
In what was once described as the ‘golden age’
Before it all went to ****
Before everything got so real
As we dreamt life would mean more to us than this
Now all that’s left is to look around for someone to blame
In the name of achieving a clear conscious
Because who really wants to take responsibility?
To act by choice with sincerity and an overwhelming sense of morality
When in reality
All we ever want is to be free
And to get away with as much as we can
Like having one more drink before the pain in your liver reaches breaking point
If you’re lucky you’ll wake up face down in a gutter
Rather than face up in a hospital bed
Fighting for your life because there’s nothing else to do
Because we both know If you had the option, you wouldn’t bother
If you had the option, you’d be out getting slaughtered
In a ****** old ****** or in front of your daughter
It’s all the same to you
For someone so pitiful with bewildering behaviour
Who only calls his kids once a month, and when you do
It’s just to ask for that one last special favour
Knowing the answer you’ll get every time is the same
Yes, anything you ask dad
Yes, anything just for you
And who in that hopeless position gives up the chance to be aided and abetted?
Because it’s easier to ignore the lessons you’re supposed to learn today
In the hope they won’t return tomorrow
But they always do
Scrutiny is always one step away from coming for you
And I can say for a fact nothing is more certain in life
Because, well
I can only see the truth
In the near distance
And I bathe in the fire of its certainty
I prefer the immediate pain of it
Rather than stewing in a melting *** of ‘what ifs’
A death by a thousand cuts is fun for no one
Don’t you agree?
Or would you be weighed down by the burden,
Of living life without the liberty of hope?
It doesn’t mean ambition has to be quashed
It doesn’t mean vision has to be vague
Or your spirit has to dwindle like a glorious rainbow fading to beige
It’s just a reminder you don’t have to plough on
Senseless and directionless
Like a hamster outside of the wheel
Blinded by the darkness of a vast space
In what was once described as the ‘golden age’
Before it all went to ****
Before everything got so real
As we dreamt life would mean more to us than this
Now all that’s left is to look around for someone to blame
In the name of achieving a clear conscious
Because who really wants to take responsibility?
To act by choice with sincerity and an overwhelming sense of morality
When in reality
All we ever want is to be free
And to get away with as much as we can
Like having one more drink before the pain in your liver reaches breaking point
If you’re lucky you’ll wake up face down in a gutter
Rather than face up in a hospital bed
Fighting for your life because there’s nothing else to do
Because we both know If you had the option, you wouldn’t bother
If you had the option, you’d be out getting slaughtered
In a ****** old ****** or in front of your daughter
It’s all the same to you
For someone so pitiful with bewildering behaviour
Who only calls his kids once a month, and when you do
It’s just to ask for that one last special favour
Knowing the answer you’ll get every time is the same
Yes, anything you ask dad
Yes, anything just for you
And who in that hopeless position gives up the chance to be aided and abetted?
Because it’s easier to ignore the lessons you’re supposed to learn today
In the hope they won’t return tomorrow
But they always do
Scrutiny is always one step away from coming for you
And I can say for a fact nothing is more certain in life
Because, well
I can only see the truth
