must I love so violently
must I love with all my blood and down to the bones
everyone
everyone
do I love
I do love everyone.
my legs give out
I’m weak in the knees
weak in the knees and I don’t even want the crying woman across the bus stop
and yet I do.
want her tears to drip in my hands like a small fountain
want to save her life, kiss her until she starts to bloom and until
all my fire is in her mouth I don’t know how to carry it on my own

it feels so heavy in the pit of my stomach and the back of my throat and the curve of my knee and in my
landscape of guts

I want
to give everyone the world
to make everyone feel loved
to be the loving person who understands to everyone
to be the
butterfly pinned to their wall like ****** Jesus on the cross
to sparkle to open their eyes to the beauty of the world
to belong to everyone
to be the saviour. to be the mother. to be love, to be love-
to be love. not to be holy
not to be God
to be love.