my mother told me that life was worth living and that dying by my own hand was selfish
my father said that he would always be there after leaving five times
but I wonder if he knows how many times I died by his foot steps or by my mothers second hand smoke
I would rather shoot myself in the head than have these demons control me and I would rather suffocate myself than let your smoke choke me I would rather choose my own fate than have one chosen for me let me breathe oxygen for once and not have my lungs crushed by your gym shoes let my heart not be smashed by another slammed door or have my mind poisoned by your treatment and religion
god was manifested to manipulate in whatever way suits you best