Sep 2020
I always wondered what love felt like. Then I met you. Best feeling ever but then again knowing you dont love me back is the worst feeling ever. I accept the fact we cant be but you dont get it. You are going to be that one person that I carry with me for the rest of my life. You are the story of my life. I am only a part of yours.You may say I'm cold-hearted,but I do have a heart.I just have a tendency to give it to the wrong people.You can thank my Ex's for making me who I am.
I miss you so much. All I wanna do is cry every time I think of you. I want to give up on love because I know we will never be the same as we use to be. I will never feel the love that I feel with you. It takes a second to like, it takes a minute to crush, it takes a week to love but it takes a life time to forget..I'm fighting back emotions that I've never fought before, cause I'm not suppose to LOVE you anymore... You said you wanted to be friends and I agreed it was best for you, but now i don't know if ill be able to, memories keep popping up and Im not sure if i can handle it To some people I love you means in this moment that's how I feel .To me it means ill fight for us to the end.Wish i had known you didn't mean it the same as I did Just once I wish I knew exactly what to say to you, how to say it and when to say it. There is no words to say. When what I want to say i cant.
It's because of her that I can't have you. It's because of her that I can't be happy with you.
It's because of her that everything has to stop.
It's because of her that you aren't mine
It's all because of her
You know we had a special kind of love since the 5th grade. It was puppy love back then. To the 9th grade when it trun to love till now it turn to us making love. Its a dream come true. A dream that girls dream of. A dream of mine that I will never have.
I say it's getting hard to handle being friends but deep down I know not being friends will hurt more. I often dreamed of you when you left me out the blue back in freshman year. Wonder where you were? How you was doing? Who was loving you? If she was loving you right? Then you found me on facebook and everything had changed. My feeling stayed the same. I played it off like you finding me wasnt a big deal. Deep down I was happy and fill with excitement. Then you told me you had to tell me something. The world around me stopped by the tone of your voice I knew I wasnt about to like what was about to be told. You told me you was having a son and right then and there I knew. I had lost you for ever. That day killed me inside. It hurt so **** bad.
Then you stop talking to me and years later you contacted me on facebook. Told me you was back home and you wanted to see me. We met up and we made love. Looking into your eyes I saw the love , the feelings , the hurt in your eyes. Thats the moment I knew that we cant do it again. It isnt fair to me or to you. It will just hurt us in the long run. So once again im stuck here wondering what I am suppose to do. Because when I have a bad day all I want to do is talk to you. When I have I good day I wanna tell you about it first. This isnt how it suppose to be. Im not suppose to be stuck on you
Im not suppose to think of you 24/7. The first thing in the morning when I wake up to the middle of the day to the time I fall asleep. You are the first and last thing I think of. Why is this? It drives me insane. So what is a girl suppose to do?
I miss you so much. All I wanna do is cry every time I think of you. I want to give up on love because I know we will never be the same as we use to be. I will never feel the love that I feel with you. It takes a second to like, it takes a minute to crush, it takes a week to love but it takes a life time to forget..I'm fighting back emotions that I've never fought before, cause I'm not suppose to LOVE you anymore... You said you wanted to be friends and I agreed it was best for you, but now i don't know if ill be able to, memories keep popping up and Im not sure if i can handle it To some people I love you means in this moment that's how I feel .To me it means ill fight for us to the end.Wish i had known you didn't mean it the same as I did Just once I wish I knew exactly what to say to you, how to say it and when to say it. There is no words to say. When what I want to say i cant.
It's because of her that I can't have you. It's because of her that I can't be happy with you.
It's because of her that everything has to stop.
It's because of her that you aren't mine
It's all because of her
You know we had a special kind of love since the 5th grade. It was puppy love back then. To the 9th grade when it trun to love till now it turn to us making love. Its a dream come true. A dream that girls dream of. A dream of mine that I will never have.
I say it's getting hard to handle being friends but deep down I know not being friends will hurt more. I often dreamed of you when you left me out the blue back in freshman year. Wonder where you were? How you was doing? Who was loving you? If she was loving you right? Then you found me on facebook and everything had changed. My feeling stayed the same. I played it off like you finding me wasnt a big deal. Deep down I was happy and fill with excitement. Then you told me you had to tell me something. The world around me stopped by the tone of your voice I knew I wasnt about to like what was about to be told. You told me you was having a son and right then and there I knew. I had lost you for ever. That day killed me inside. It hurt so **** bad.
Then you stop talking to me and years later you contacted me on facebook. Told me you was back home and you wanted to see me. We met up and we made love. Looking into your eyes I saw the love , the feelings , the hurt in your eyes. Thats the moment I knew that we cant do it again. It isnt fair to me or to you. It will just hurt us in the long run. So once again im stuck here wondering what I am suppose to do. Because when I have a bad day all I want to do is talk to you. When I have I good day I wanna tell you about it first. This isnt how it suppose to be. Im not suppose to be stuck on you
Im not suppose to think of you 24/7. The first thing in the morning when I wake up to the middle of the day to the time I fall asleep. You are the first and last thing I think of. Why is this? It drives me insane. So what is a girl suppose to do?
