a porch on a seashore; a small room with a big window. i love you in this shirt. i love you here in the chaos of my arms and your arms. my legs and your legs. outside the choir is getting loud and quiet. and i have cried for all the times i couldn't hold you and bring you from the cold to this warm home. i have made us tea. i love you in the first moments of morning light and soft sleep. the choir is playing a familiar song, and you can have this for ever. the ocean is yellow with sunflowers; the stories are turning the skies pink. i love how you remember things. your shirt smells lovely. you're looking at me. air. breath. sounds. the choir is just for you. i love you all the time.