the things I find avoidable
I have a list of them
my fears
sour people
and the possibility of me being forced into isolation
I must avoid that
because you know I can’t stand being alone
being alone will bring me absolute hell
my wrist is sore
from all this harm

but I can't blame anyone but myself
because I choose to bring this pain upon me
no one tells me anything negative enough to make me mistreat myself
I love the feeling
of the pain I can bring upon yours truly
but sharing about it is a whole nother story
one I don’t want to read
understand
complete

del·i·cate
ˈdelikət/
adjective

very fine in texture or structure; of intricate workmanship or quality
easily broken or damaged; fragile
(of a person, animal, or plant) susceptible to illness or adverse conditions

(of a state or condition) easily upset or damaged
requiring sensitive or careful handling
(of a person or an action) tactful and considerate
skillful and finely judged; deft
(of an instrument) highly sensitive