Although sometimes we shatter due to happiness,
I have experienced the shatter, the slow fall apart, and the explosion.
The difference?
Shattering makes you feel as if you are in millions of pieces,
Lying on the cold linoleum floor
And feeling the difference between the air and the ground:
Burning humidity that a hand could cut through
And pure ice like when you involuntarily shiver despite being wrapped in a blanket.
You actually have the opportunity to be put back together and look like new.
Slowly falling apart takes time
And hurts the most, and makes happiness last the longest.
It stings for hours, leaving you smiling long after whatever happened,
Happened.
You actually can pick up yourself as you fall apart to be fixed and become anew.
Exploding is imminent:
You know it's coming, but not when
and then you are plastered against the wall,
No hope of being pieced together and scattered all throughout the room:
Your being so broken and destroyed that no one finds you recognizable.
Pain may be like this, but happiness is even more so like shattering, falling apart, or exploding.
And when your heart does one of those three,
Your brain protests in its loudest voice,
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS IN THE END!
NO BODY EVER ENDS UP HAPPY!"
But your heart doesn't care
Because being happy for a short amount of time is much more worthwhile
Than being stone cold forever.