Spring was meant to wash away winter’s decay
But a new season doesn’t mean a lack of reasons
Just a lack of reason, irrationally feeling suicidal
Tell somebody, they say you’re being whiny
Dramatic, stop complaining, you got it good
Why’re you trying to dig up pain?
Aren’t you tired of this game?

Well, see, it’s a game I can’t stop playing
It’s a mantra, words I can’t stop saying
They’re emotions I learned to stop displaying
It’s a beast in disguise, a part of my own mind
Ripping my head to shreds, telling me I’m better off dead

See, no matter what anybody tells you, you’re at it alone
It’s all *******, because the way they care is just a loan
Borrowed support,
But do this again and it’s just a cry for attention
Everybody feels this way and you’re no exception
Yeah, but everybody seems to be on their way to contention

And I’m just sitting here mulling over last year
Knowing if I told you, you’d disappear
Half an hour is time wasted
Any time trying with me is time wasted
Any time I’m not feeling alright is time wasted
And you forget what you said but trust me
Those were not words wasted