Although the (your) carpet under my feet hurts me, i still bear to stand on it.
I wonder how you have made it so far, but the worst thing you have created is this common ground.
Many have sacrificed their lives, there’s so much blood.
I bet someday there will be mine too.
You like to save this as memoirs; of the deaths of souls.
Lost them to you, your victorious prize.
I would go down this instance, but I’m stronger than you assume. I'm reluctant.
Just like every other woman was when she stood here.
So im writing this down for centuries to become.
Wrath that intensifies as I uncover you is perpetual, the softest thing about you is hardly the first time we met.
I walked this distant, even though my feet ached, even though i couldn’t carry it.
I wandered this far and made it to these (un)common grounds that have needles for yarns, hot coals for clouds.
I am like a withered child whose unaddressed anxiety turns to immorality.
I have despised you for so long; I have forgotten what love feels like.
Each morning I carry fog into every deserted island, wishing I was deserted too.
But I’m afraid the day I will crawl my way out of here, I will slip into old patterns.
There must be something you should be unwilling of, it simply stops you from doing it.
Fear is an absurd paltry word, it fathoms all the energy in the world to push away one or maybe two things.
I fear several details, and maybe that is why I loathe being here.
I am tired now, so I will lie down;
Make place for these needles to pierce into my back.
I would prefer them not to harm so much, but beauty is pain.
Its agony, sickness and ache.
I just never considered love would be.
I close my eyes and try to imagine every softer and brighter thing I Can remember; and that is only something I know is yet to come.
A (my) lover of muse, of candles, and crisp leaves.
Of moonlight and freezing breeze.
Of everything I ever hoped for; but less.
Our dreams would merge on the longest night. And we shall spend ages in each other's arms; an undying sight.