I need to crawl my way out of this hole I shoved myself into
I need to stop eating dirt and pushing myself farther down
and then screaming and sobbing and wondering how
I got myself so stuck so far down so breathless so hopeless
I need to find a way to distinguish myself from the air around me
I need to find a way to make sure I don’t float away
I need to find a better answer to people asking what’s wrong
better than holding onto glossy eyes and twisting the blade
I need a weight to remind me if I float too high I can’t breathe