I felt like my heart was breaking When I thought about you
It’s an odd feeling Since you’re my dad
But there were the tell-tale signs
It’s a nostalgic feeling Combined with a sadness And a despairing emotional turn
It’s sad really Terrifying in some ways To think that I’m not loved
It isn’t true though
He loves me He cares about me
I don’t think he likes me though At least not the majority of the time
He thinks I don’t listen That I’m ungrateful
I think he’s wrong That he doesn’t hear me
I’ve been living here In this environment For a long time
I feel unwelcome by him
Yes My heart truly breaks for us For him
I care deeply for my father I love my father Yet I don’t know how to express this While maintaining my authentic self expression
Some days I give up Hole away in my treehouse room Lay in bed or distract myself
Other days I try I speak and smile I still go up to my treehouse room It’s my space
I wonder if it will ever change If our relationship will improve
I hope so I hope our hearts mend Our wounds heal Our emotions open And we spread joy and contentment Just as the sun setting and rising spreads beauty and hope