Outside was my red bicycle leaning against the wall next to a red wheelbarrow on which nothing depended on.
I was the kind of child who was always daydreamingΒ Β himself to victory and today I would win the Tour de France.
So the plan was to practice beyond my own wobbling peddling, like the unbalanced red wheelbarrow my father pushed among the chickens.
I felt the heat, the flame of potential speed where so much could happen and depended on my straight control in a world zooming by in flame
until the wind was red wings, only my own red thoughts ablaze in the warp and the things I hated of the world were no longer in myself.
until I flew over the handlebars hitting my forehead on a sky blue Cadillac door handle, the scar following me to the future.
Now I nick the tiny flames of memory, as I push the red wheelbarrow up the hill as if my life depended on it, even as it always wobbles down to the chickens.