I do not die...I do not sleep But loneliness kills me with a mental dent And I fall on a paradox to the inch of the floor As little happy faces make me envy the warmth I long for
I do not breathe...i do not sleep I'm just a little doll With small hands and fabric skin
They call me names like a toy that ring But I'm a rusting doll starving in a room They use me whenever they need to And dump me back in this dark scary room And when months skims to July... They seek for me Those wretched humans Their hands itch for my body But my cold fabric skin urge for warmth And so my helplessness gives in As my feelings pour out and unfolds like dandelions Their warmth Their tasty grace Their souls intertwining mine And their strong breathing that sounds like a tempest All these things I envy... But when winter breaks I'm thrown away...back to the room Like a litter in a ***** street
I stand on the window As the sun touches the surface of the earth And I see other toys in the backyard
And I panic on these heavy scars That crawl through my cheap violet threads Oh I'm a rusting doll tearing pieces of my sadness Dwindling ecstasy from the warm courtesy of hands The diligence I envy from them
But I'm only a rusting doll hiding behind the heavy door... A lone soul in a musty fabric skin