How does one get to this point?
I can't even retrace my steps back to when I didn't feel this strongly for you, and this is since the first time I realized I felt something for you.

I dream about you at times, it's bittersweet. Nothing too intense, it's mostly just a quick conversation and an abrupt embrace before we go our own ways.
Ah, but there was this one time you stroked my cheek and you had this look in your eyes as if you regretted something. To think I knew enough even when I was dreaming to tell you that it was too late. You said nothing regardless.

It's difficult waking up and recalling it. Even more so considering how much I treasure these dreams.

It's unnerving you know, to forget about you for a handful of weeks and to be reminded by my own mind that you're still there but you'll never be with me the way I want you to be.

Yesterday was a little different and it made me realize reality hits so much harder. It was just a simple text message after roughly 3-4 months.

I'm scared of what I'll feel when I meet you.