Hello Cruel world
As I woke today feeling bad and hoping that today would be the day everything changed for me its get worse, the pain the feeling that I’m no good, I’m worthless and pathetic, unlovable and I was once weak now I’m weaker and full of pain for no matter how much I love and care for you. You don’t feel the same way about me and I know for sure now after today. You hate me and to be honestly I hate myself so much and really long for die so much and wish it would come.  If only I was brave enough to end my life I know you and everyone would be so much better off with me. You don’t really care and let face it never really did why would anyone love a pathetic weak **** like me, my heart is broken, the blood is in my veins wanted to be released and how I need to released it now, it calls to me and longs to be release and i longs to released it , I can't fight it anyone the long to be gone and to release myself from society and this world is getting greater and greater.