I'm tired of days where I just laugh, and sit so still and contemplate, an inner peace and where it's from. I always end with the same refrain. How I can see with endless clarity: they're nothing but guests in my reality. But then this thought can drown me, breed recklessness, not rationality. So having peaked an immortal mountain, and taken a while at dizzying heights, I stop to look down at the road not taken, and see before me the phase I begin. From the other side on the hard road down, the summit was ephemeral, I naive, and the whole thing a pattern, just another routine. I'm tired of an utter lack of hope, a nonexistence, a complete retraction. I'm sick of endless ups and downs, Being battered forth, and carried back again, amongst the arms of no control. I am right now in the terrible deep. I'm so very tired of everything. Yet still I cannot sleep.