She’s still broken
Fell back asleep
And has not woken
Sinking deep
One eye wide open
Two subconsciously closed
Forever and always hoping
To remain composed
But retracted into the mind
Overwhelming, consistent chatter
Treats the body unkind
Emotions scattered
Vulnerable to relapse
The depression and anxiety attacks
Whole life on the verge of collapse
Indifference piles up like brick stacks
Creating a wall
Heavy as f-ck
Too much weight; can’t move at all
Feeling forever stuck
Laying here
Heart beat alive
Covered in fear
Water below, ready to dive
Love is calling me near
Water consumingly cold
Difficult to breathe
But washes away the old
And grounds me to the Earth beneath
My weary feet
And the White Light I’ve seen
I will not accept defeat
Despite how challenging it’s been
Maybe my head under water
Isn’t all that bad
Resurfacing, I’ve floated further
Smiling, grateful and glad
Breathing in salty sea air
Ocean Breeze on my face
Friends who care
Take a picture just in case
I let go of the feeling
When I embraced the healing.