there was a half-circle of blue I saw once out of a hotel room window. I didn't know if it was a swimming pool or the sea. I looked at it. The fact that it existed at all seemed remarkable. The water was a shade of blue that I had never seen before. That was the thing that got to me. I knew that having seen it had changed me in some way. Irrevocably. It was the same way I felt when I first let you inside of me. I suppose that is the feeling of desire. We like to think that desire is the same as yearning. But it's not. I don't want to desire you. I don't want to chase after something that I know is beautiful. I want you to eat through me. That is how you learn how to love someone.