Regretting the moments I took for granted,
Moments when I was eaten by pride and hatred.
What if I had told you what I did?
Would it change my life's wheel?
I was so afraid to fall in love deeply,
For mending a broken heart will never be easy.
I have been rotting in that hell before,
And I don't want to be there anymore.
But why is my heart crying in pain?:-)                
Why do I feel that my life's turning so plain?
Should I have told you that I love you?
Should I have showed you that it's true?
I Should have not cheated
I Should have not lied to you
They say some words are better left unsaid,
Emotions should be kept till they fade.
No, scratch all the cowardice and negativity,
Because saying what you feel is the real bravery.
So what if you won't love me back?
At least there will be no what if's in my mind.
But it's too late for me to realize this fact,
'Cause now you're gone and you'll never be mine.
I lAY awake THE LAST 5 nightS,
Wishing of things I can change.
I try to convince myself,
But it's all so strange.
Is it me,
Or is it you?
Do I try,
Or are we through?
So long we've shared
Just to walk away.
But so much hurt
To want to stay.
Why does people do this,
Try to hurt the other more,
Only to watch one
Walk right out the door?
I love you so much,
Yet I push you to the point of breaking,
But why do you play with my heart
And never stop taking?
Is this the end
Or a new beginning?
Only one can guide me
When my head is spinning.
Don't push,
Don't try,
Don't stress,
Don't cry.
That is what plays
Over in my head
As I try to close my eyes
And just go to bed
Saying you loved me, with that look in your eye.
I wish I could say it was a cold-hearted lie.
I know that you love me, I know that you care,
But the rage inside you slowly flared.
I admit I've made mistakes, overstepping the boundaries,
Which made me look fake.
I always said I would never do the things I did,
And I know that's why it's so hard for you to forgive.
So many times we've said that we'd try,
Just to turn around and make each other cry.
Remember how it was when we first started out?
We fell so hard, maybe fell in love too soon.
At one point you'd notice ONLY me in the room.
We both did things we can't undo;
Now it seems our relationship is headed for doom,
And not that long ago, I was EVERYTHING to you.
Now you're looking for other things to "do."
I admit my mistakes, an take full responsibility
I am still paying for what I have done,
So why is it like this? Why can't we even talk?
You call me names and act like you don't care,
All a while, our love for each other is still there.
I never meant to hurt you or cause you any pain,
I know neither of us want to go through this same old stuff again.
I owe you so much, and I have so much to prove to you,
But you continue to do things you wouldn't want me to do.
We always have these tears to cry,
And are left with all these wondering questions of why?
Why can't we get past the past? Do You think I expect too much too fast,
don't you want to become whole at last?
Why won't you at least try to believe me, instead of pushing me further away?
I have these emotions, I wish you could see,
Sometimes I get really upset, 'cause I feel you don't understand me
Will you ever  touch me? Show me the love that I ONCE knew?
The love that we both grew,
When will you see? I'm starting to feel like I don't exist anymore?
When can we go back to how it was before? Will we go back?
Will we still hurt if we heal? Or by that time, will we still feel?
My dream of US does not look like it's coming true.
All I feel is sad and blue,
And I know you're looking for other things to "do."
You're sick of me and want something else