I still miss him sometimes I find myself thinking If only I had opened up my heart to him My soul Maybe I could have loved him Maybe I could have healed. But no I suffered in silence Rotting slowly away behind the Mask My face smiling. My soul Tormented
His eys saw only what I allowed them to perceive As he looked up at me with so much love A love I did not deserve But I took it Because I did not have the courage to die alone And I hated myself for that
In the darkest hours of the night I'd watch him Sleeping peacefully As tears edged more lines down my face Then, I'd turn and stare at the blank Sterile walls Finally, finding my way into another tortured Sleep
Every morning I'd awake in this Silent castle And I'd dream of the moment it would be filled With the sound of a child dancing I could almost see this child I could almost touch this child Every day I'd promise myself One day she will return One day I will be worthy Of his love
But, morning after morning I'd awake To silence And him a little farther away Then there was only the silence And the sterile walls