There are nights That I think of you All of you It starts off as an idea in my head I think of your face and the way my tongue wore your name so comfortably I think of our relationship and in these moments I only think of the good The good on how happy I felt to be with you To be seen by you To be wanted by you And these memories lead to what some would perceive as creepy google searches I start with your name and click on every link that has anything to do with you I look at your old Facebook pictures when you were an insecure high schooler And I smile and my heart softens Because I knew you You were apart of me Sewed into my everyday life You were my friend, my companion and maybe even my renegade lover or the object of my desire And for a moment my heart longs for you I long for what we had, whether it was a relationship deeper and more complex than the ocean or as shallow as a lake I think of where we could’ve been today What we could’ve been And I think about who you are today I wonder what you’re doing, how you’re doing And who has the privilege of knowing you like I knew you And for a moment my heart is saddened And with that I close the webpages, my thoughts of you going into hibernation At least until another night That I remember the idea of you