you didn’t want me
not when your fingers dug into
my hips or when they trailed
their way up my thigh
and i don’t think
i really wanted you, either
we wanted skin and we wanted flesh
touch without connection
we pressed our lips together
once or
twice but i think it was habit
more than anything
we were doing this
so we had to do this
touch me and i’ll touch
you but really
i was touching him
and you were touching her