Retreats are deeper than elusive sleep.
Dying slowly, alone, in front of screens, any screen will do.
Anxious weights in the presence of people I'll never know

To be careless, like them, must be an answer.

Closer than before but still completely out of focus.
Intense wonder has served no purpose.
Bowing out, surrendering beneath thick curtains,
Never knowing true antagonists or faceless oppressors.

Sparing doubt and masks, it will be as a dream,
Without connections, arbitrary relationship is king.