Often times I'd stop and think what you really mean to me.
Do I love you as much as I claim to?
Or do I crave the feeling of someone who appreciates me for me?
Or I just want to feel what I feel for you?

In silence, I give myself a thousand reasons to let go
But in loudness, I give myself a million reasons to hold on.
One day, you'd be there and make me feel like I'm flying
The next, I keep staring at the screen waiting for you to acknowledge I'm here.

Am I just a pastime to cheer you up in this cruel world we're in?
Or did you really ever care about me like you say you do?
I can't find the right words to ask you
But I keep looking at your actions and tell myself "this is what it is"

I can feel my heart break a little at the thought of it.
I thought that despite this mess of a life, I found someone I can love
You gave me the strength to still hope for the better
You taught me that life is still beautiful even with all the mess

Was that all for nothing?
Were your words filled with lies?
Were all your promises a mere fragment of my imagination?
Were you not someone I hoped you were?

I wish I could tell my heart to stop
But you keep pulling me back in
I can no longer escape this cage I'm in.