i hate when you say things that sound like me in another language things i know i've said in another lifetime maybe even this lifetime maybe i've said them to you
i hate it because i have already fought myself a million times i always lose
i hate it because i know how weak i am and i know how much it hurts to be me i hate to see you mirroring me walking in my shoes
on my drive home from work today i started crying thinking about how a week ago i had a plan i told you about it kinda i said it like it was a joke but i had a plan to dive off the cliff by my old house the one where my brothers grew up its about a 200 foot drop from that cliff to the water i did the research that’s far enough to do it you were the only reason i didn’t
this might be a stupid comparison but when i watched a star is born last year i hated bradley cooper for what he did for leaving and hurting his loved ones when he had such a beautiful love and a beautiful future he had come so far and he let it all go why?
last week, if i hadn’t thought so hard before starting my car i could’ve done the same