i don't know
why we are still friends
i don't know
how to stay up
the two hours we are together
and though
my laugh might get
louder
but looking you in the eye
i think everything i have to say
is less and less interesting

i wrote a song
about our best friends back when
and it goes
"try to make you laugh
but you make me wanna stop"
and when you talked to me about
him and her
i am okay until
i cannot take it anymore
suddenly
and i
know i cannot make you laugh

are we friends
because of the memory?
they were bad memories
is it guilt?
repentance.
why are we still friends?

380 kilometers
and 4 years
no sound