I sat there in his office, for our first formal meeting and I thought: what a strange little man and I thought: thoughts are private, he can't know but I've no poker face, so as I watched him look at me silently I was eyeing him like a stained onion under a microscope Look at the cell wall, the keys dangling from the faded Dockers from 1982 the pale hands with the small sausage fingers everyone talked about his hands and those small fingers that would gesticulate and pontificate and annunciate his power over us He walked from his desk to the table, and it seemed like it took ten steps and he became smaller with every stride, in the faded wrinkled shirt, made of flannel like a used bed sheet there is the nucleus, the papers in his hand I thought and his faded green eyes darted over at me, and he knew, he could feel it, he knew I thought he was a dork At last he settled down at the table and I joined him and the sausage fingers of power shuffled through my evaluations, which were good before he had that grudge, nursed over the summer before he let it sink in that he was never good enough in my eyes that he was always dissapointing me I would walk to him, like trying to buy good organic food at a seven eleven and wondering why every time, it wasn't there He knew he couldn't do anything right in my eyes He wasn't up to my challenge I didn't know that he knew