seconds pass as i romanticize my past for twisted present remains silent , now my bed cuffs me together as heart aches on my side, unable to sleep i write in hope of feeling sane within this madness.
for facebook posts remind me of moments pure love kissing affection, old posts and videos & images shared between souls are deleted to avoid distracting present realizations.

forced me to see you differently, no longer the one i knew. forced to see you a cheater, lying to feel complete & me a fool. you placed me into pit dark filled with mistreated social gore, worried, alone without a  hand to hold. now i force myself to see, for love is not for me, i love to heavens but hell is where my heart will be. so i whittle down my mind twenty five dollars a time, i feel my feelings rot, holding on in passion for i don't want to be or think for i wasn't lying i am not longer me.

tattoos print feelings, intimidation i scream, death satanic destruction my heavens are crying scabbed knees bleed from traffic.